Lately... I have felt like giving up. Life has lost the wonder and magic that it once held for me.
But it's my fault.
Or rather I feel like it is. But I can't just flip a switch and be happy. Although believe me I would like to. I wish it were that easy. I was listening to music earlier and the theme from Disneys Hercules came on, the words hit me.
I have often dreamed,
Of a far off place,
Where a great warm welcome,
Will be waiting for me.
Where the crowds will cheer,
When they see my face,
And a voice keeps saying,
'This is where I'm meant to be'.
I will find my way,
I can go the distance,
I'll be there someday,
If I can be strong,
I know every mile,
Will be worth my while,
I would go most anywhere,
to feel like I belong.
After the song was over I realized something that I will probably forget in several hours. I realized that most of my problems stem from selfishness. It's always about me. My problems, My fears, MY MY MY! I have apart time job in which I have the amazing opportunity to help others. When I am not self centered and focused on what is wrong in my life, and instead focus my energies on helping others succeed that is when I forget the pain, I forget how crappy my day might have been and all my problems seem insignificant.
I look at the news and every day there are more problems and more issues debated and discussed but everyones focus is on the wrong solution. Politicians say that laws are passed to protect others and help others... is it? Or is it what can I get, how can I benefit or what is in it for me?
From someone that wishes for nothing more than the help of others, happiness does not come from the outside. Attention, praise and material gifts aren't worth a brass button.
Accolades and fame all fade.
What becomes immortal? Examples of integrity or lack thereof. When we think of the great people in history most come from the ideals and beliefs they held. That is what makes a man great. Not how much is in his bank account.
I may not be an expert in media and entertainment, but when motion pictures first came out, there were actors that were the cream of the crop. They were the Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie of their day. Do we remember them? No.
Past presidents, the ones we remember are the ones that fought for ideals. Washington, Lincoln, Roosevelt etc. all had one thing in common. They fought for something more substantial than money or fame. Leaders that are truly servants of the people will be better remembered than any scandal or political agenda.
Bad things happen. Point blank, case closed. But they are not necessarily the fault of anyone. When did we stop caring for victims of tragedy and focus on who can I sue for money to ease MY pain.
We all have one life to live. My life is riddled with challenges that I wish I could give up and walk away from. Does that make me broken or weak? No. I am who I am because of the struggles and trials I have faced. I have the choice every day of giving up or rising for the ashes and working to overcome what I face and there by prove to myself that I can and will succeed.
